I am a girl, 22, who, up until a few months ago, liked boys. I'm now looking at girls too. This makes me bi?

There is a girl, woman (28) , at work, who is gay. Right now, as I'm typing, she is in my thoughts. I don't think I can describe how much I want her, physically and emotionally. We are friends. She has an ex from hell. Literally. We're talking getting her best friend beaten up so bad she fractured her collarbone and cheekbone. This woman is vile. We all work at the same place. This is how I met her. We are immediate colleagues, the ex works in another division, as does the best friend.

For the last few weeks, maybe months, I've been wanting her. She's a bit butch. Wear men's jeans and t-shirts but does her hair real nice. Got lovely hair. The ex hurt her bad, was a long realtionship, 5 years. Messy break up. The best friend is pregnant, due in three months. We get on fine.

Thing is, I can't tell her how I feel. Really, can I? It's complicated, as aforementioned. And I don't want to risk our friendship. And I have absolutely no idea how she feels about me. And if she knows how I lust after her. It's not just that though, lust. I want to look after her and have her look after me. When I drink around her I find her incredibly sexy and very hard to hold it down. I have always managed so far (only been a handful of occasions really) but who knows... Could next time be the time I say something? And people at work, they must suspect. I don't think this one is entirely down to my paranoia. Thing is, does she? And will there ever be a time to say it? And could I pluck up the actual courage to do it? I'm also very wary about stepping on the best friend's toes. She's all pregnant and girl of my dreams is in deep with it too. She's taking almost a year off work when she has the baby. I'm assuming they won't see as much of each other. But that still means they'll probably see each other pretty much every other day.

What do I do? Risk it? Or leave it and stay friends? I think the latter would be more beneficial. Either way, she is driving me to distraction and I keep on thinking about her. Same thoughts whizzing round my head day and night. Last thing at night, first thing in the morning. Will it end? Not when we are working so closely together I suspect.

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